sweet bitterness

in my hallucination
i saw my beloved's flower garden
in my vertigo, in my dizziness
in my drunken haze
whirling and dancing like a spinning wheel

i saw myself as the source of existence
i was there in the beginning
and I was the spirit of love
now I am sober
there is only the hangover
and the memory of love
and only the sorrow

i yearn for happiness
i ask for help
i want mercy
and my love says:

look at me and hear me
because I am here
just for that

i am your moon and your moonlight too
i am your flower garden and your water too
i have come all this way, eager for you
without shoes or shawl

i want you to laugh
to kill all your worries
to love you
to nourish you

oh sweet bitterness
i will soothe you and heal you
i will bring you roses
i, too, have been covered with thorns

(by madonna & deepak chopra)

happie valentine's day!