moments

these few days i have been hit by 'moments'. hard to sleep, mind was not focus on the things that need to be done. i feel like am every where. i swallow it in and hope for it to go away. and i am still figuring out how to end it.

further more, i was slapped by reality of where am i standing. i did not know how far i can go to know myself anymore. am i good for this? am i good for that? am i good enough to deserve something? answers... (wait and see for the answers soon)

when i have these 'moments', usually i'll played snow patrol 'open eyes' album and listen to tracks that i love.. chasing cars, you're all i have, you could be happy and set fire to the third bar. i've listening to it over and over again now.. i felt sense of relieve in my mind esp after listening to chasing cars..

we'll do it all
everything
on our own

we don't need
anything
or anyone

if I lay here
if I just lay here
would you lie with me and just forget the world?

i don't quite know
how to say
how I feel

those three words
are said too much
they're not enough

if I lay here
if I just lay here
would you lie with me and just forget the world?

forget what we're told
before we get too old
show me a garden that's bursting into life

let's waste time
chasing cars
around our heads

i need your grace
to remind me
to find my own

if I lay here
if I just lay here
would you lie with me and just forget the world?

forget what we're told
before we get too old
show me a garden that's bursting into life

all that I am
all that I ever was
is here in your perfect eyes, they're all I can see

i don't know where
confused about how as well
just know that these things will never change for us at all

if I lay here
if I just lay here
would you lie with me and just forget the world?

weather: hot & clear

my mind: zzzzz

my joint: snowy

my ipod playing: chasing cars - snow patrol