away

in the next few hours i'll be travelling to sg petani for 3 days business trip. we are driving and it is going to be tiring journey. however, am excited as i never been to sg petani!

my ipod playing: i kissed a girl - katy perry

traumatise

june just came back from the vet this afternoon after spending a night at the clinic. adrian and myself sent june to the vet to 'close shop'. we do this for the sake of her own good in the long run.

it is devastating to see her look very depressing today. i think she is still traumatize from the surgery. she has to wear the collar for a week to prevent her from licking the wound and we need to clean the wound once a day for a week.

get well soon june, we miss your hyper-activeness activity!

my ipod playing: lost - anouk

lost in this world..

i am in love with this sappy songs.

wonderful voice of anouk. honestly, i never heard of her, but i discovered her songs from sytycd..



my ipod playing: lost - anouk

i kissed a girl / u r so gay

am currently addicted to this...

i kissed a girl

i kissed a girl and i like it...



ur so gay

ur so gay and you don't like boys...



both by katy perry, the biggest debut in US for this summer. is her songs gonna make it to our air waves? hmmmm...

my ipod playing: hot & cold - katy perry

sizzling bollywood

performance by katee & joshua from so you think you can dance (s04)

boy! it was..hot! hot! hot!

my ipod playing: i kissed a girl - katy perry

gaycations...

i want to plan gaycations with adrian. where should we go?

my ipod playing: disturbia - rihanna

family potrait

family - from mom's side

the photo was taken when my last trip back home last month. notice how many girls are in the picture?

my ipod playing: closer (norty cotto can't stopradio edit) - ne-yo

the busy me

i am extremely busy at the moment..

my ipod playing: the one (freemason mix) - kylie minogue

shelter

came across this movie in my download list. nothing fancy about the movie. however, it has a stellar performance that beyond expectations. i was thought that this some rip-off gay flick but it turn out to be more mature. the movie that am talking about is Shelter. probably so far the best gay flick i've seen this year. presented by here! Films and written/directed by jonah markowitz starred Trevor Wright, Brad Rowe and Tina Holmes.

Synopsis

Forced to give up his dreams of art school in order to take care of his family, Zach (Trevor Wright) has become accustomed to a life where he neglects his own needs in favor of taking care of his older sister, Jeanne (Tina Holmes) and his nephew, Cody.

When his best friend’s older brother, Shaun (Brad Rowe), returns home to cure a case of writer’s block, Shaun and Zach develop a friendship that develops into a true, intimate relationship. Shaun presses Zach to take control of his life, and to take ownership of his artwork. He also develops a strong bond with Cody, and Zach happily notices the positive effect Shaun’s attention has on him. As time progresses, however, a host of new issues come up.

Zach struggles with his identity, his family, and friends, while trying to understand the new emotions Shaun has brought into his life. When the cat is let out of the bag, Jeanne threatens to take Cody away. Wanting nothing but the best for him, Zach is forced to decide between his pattern of always putting others’ desires first or fighting for what is really most important and appropriate for both his and Cody’s future.

i found that i could relate a lot of my own life into the movie itself. what i've been through, what i've face etc. i got an emotional attachment to the movie. the beauty of the movie does not lies on the hottest guy on screen but the story itself. zach has to choose whether to stand up for himself, take a chance or get stuck at where he is now. he felt so heavy burden for the choice that he made and that he put others first before himself. i do feel him throughout the movie, the pain, confusion and the hardest things to do coming out to everyone. amazing performance by trevor wright. watch this movie for other 'intense' scene!

the music selections for this movie plays a major role. majority of the songs sung by Shane Mack, an upcoming country/folk artist. he has a voice like james blunt but more refine (i think). if you like james blunt you might want to check this guy out here.

I've uploaded a clips from the movie for your feast. This clips featuring songs by Shane Mack titled lie to me. drool and enjoy!

lie to me - shane mack

my ipod playing: lie to me - shane mack

love letter

It has been a weeks since we 'really' talk. dinner was a silent one, car ride was a silent one. Things aren't good either with the situation of everything is increase. i am sad to see what's happening and i know i have not putting a lot of extra effort to make a lot of things happens. and you realized that too! at point i want to give up, but my spirit never want me to because i LOVE you very very much.

i felt burn out inside. i don't feel the warmth of you arms anymore and i don't feel the warmth of hugs. i missed all that and now i know why i feel so detach from you, from everything. now i know why i feel so empty and longing, yearning for something. it is you that i am looking for. i felt so vulnerable and fragile.

i want to run around and chasing car with you. just lie on the ground and forget the world. laugh, smile, just the TWO of us!

i wrote this in here hoping you to read it.

We're so helpless
We're slaves to our impulses
We're afraid of our emotions
And no one knows where the shore is
We're divided by the ocean
And the only thing I know is
That the answer isn't for us
- feist, so sorry

my ipod playing: chasing cars - snow patrol

iFeel - Reflection

it felt wrong if i ever speak my mind and yet my gut said this is the right thing. i slowly took myself out of the circle that bind me. it felt wrong and detachment. i sat there staring at the window, looking outside. daydreaming? not at all. reflecting what i have become and what i will become.

reflecting is not enough and nothing is never enough or good enough. procrastinating and indecisive often clouding my thought. bad judgment holding me back all the time. i learned from it but have i ever learned enough that i won't repeat the same mistake again? let go, just let go! easy to say than done.

it kills me inside sometimes and it make me frustrated. why is this happening? what cause this to happen? no one to blame but myself. forgiveness is easy to get, but losing trust from someone is something that you will never forget for the rest of your life.

how to gain the trust? how to mend broken relationship? time for another reflection to find an answer!

my ipod playing: chasing cars - snow patrol

lopez san bares all

bad day? this might cheer you up!

i love mario lopez, although he is a jerk but let us forget about that for a while and admire his picture. a tribute to (was and some still are) hottest men of tinsel town!

tribute to burt reynolds from cosmopolitan

tribute to brad pitt from thelma and louise

tribute to richard gere from american gigolo

tribute to christopher atkins from the blue lagoon

tribute to marky mark for ck (he got better package i believe)

my ipod playing: bye bye - mariah carey